Tonight I invite you to a quiet vermut on the sofa in front of the TV at home.
I travelled back from Cornwall early this morning after an overnight drive and no sleep and now am far too tired to go out anywhere!
It was strange that I had an attack of pre-flight nerves before getting on the Ryanair plane this morning. You know, when you have waves of irrational thoughts which include ‘get off the plane! get off the plane now!’?
- Waiting to board, the man behind me was restless and edgy – was he an attacker?
- It took a long time to get the plane ready to board – had there been a warning?
- Across the isle was a security guard who was permitted to carry a suitcase beside her and she kept looking back over her shoulder to check the passengers – did she have a gun?
My brain was going crazy with panic warnings and my heart was pounding as they closed the doors and we seemed to taxi forever along the runway. You know how you watch the air hostesses for reassurance? They seemed to be behaving normally so I closed my eyes and told myself it was lack of sleep that was putting me on high alert.
Of course it was all fine and we had a smooth flight and arrived on time to the now habitual burst of applause from the other passengers and the toot diddle toot toot of Ryanair because it was yet another punctual flight. I cried on landing and felt better for the release of tension.
Do you ever get afraid for no reason on a plane? Once that door opens in your mind then it is very hard to close it against the flood of terrifying images that threatens to drown you. How do the flight attendants manage to do it day after day?
Well, it’s nice to be home and lovely to sit down with a drink and feel my body begin to relax again and feel safe. Vicki Cristina Barcelona is on the television in Catalan so I think I will watch it now and slide gently into the language again . I don’t know if Bodhi Chicket is having a virtual vermut today but it’s worth going over there to take a look and see what she is thinking about.